A few weeks ago, I started feeling really anxious.
I don't want to get into too much detail, but in sum, I had this deep urge to be a better person, especially when it comes to my beliefs.
A lot of things in this world are changing and it seems as if worldly standards are veering further from my own personal beliefs.
It kind of hit me like a ton of bricks that I can't just cruise through life or I'll drift in the direction of the world.
Yes, I may be making right choices and living a good life, but in that moment, I realized that it wasn't enough.
So I had a freak out moment, like...
"BLAKE! the world is coming to an end! We can't just be chillin!"
and, "Omgeeee, how are we going to raise kids in this world!"
and, "AHH we have so many things we need to work on!"
I'm so happy a married a person who listened to my freak out and first said "Rik, you're a really really good person", but also said, "Okay, what do we need to work on?"
In that moment, the only thing that came to mind was, "we need to be on time to church!" haha cuz we're bad at that and it seemed like a good place to start.
But really, we've made some goals and we've been doing really good at them and it makes me so happy and it's totally increased the quality of our marriage.
Seriously, I'm way obsessed with B lately, like more than usual.
And I just know it's because he get me, and listens to me, and helps me when I have weird freak outs. It's nice having a person to work on stuff and share goals with.
B....I love you and appreciate you.