You guys! I'm in such a funk lately, I can't explain it. I usually don't post stuff like this on my blog. I'm all about the fluffs and sparkles of life being published for the world to see.... but since I'm "keepin' it real", I think it's okay to be completely honest and real right now. Let's face it, life isn't glamorous and amazing all the time, and I'm not about to pretend that mine is...it's definitely not. I feel like it's safe to say that I'm struggling lately. I feel like I have NO idea what I'm doing with my life. I've actually known this for awhile, but I've been able to put that little fact on the back burner. Unfortunately, I feel like the time has come and big decisions in my life can't be ignored any longer. Bad news is, I don't feel any more qualified to make these decision than I did a year ago.
I need a major. There's no more GE's to take. Do you know how many majors there are to choose from? Not only do I need a major, but I need to find motivation to finish out the classes I'm enrolled in now. I've been a straight A student my whole life...I don't get why I'm having such a hard time being excited to learn lately, it has never happened and I don't know how to deal with it.
Scheduling. I have to schedule every minute of my every day, and it's getting on my nerves! I take on a lot of things 'cause I'd rather be busy then have nothing to do...but it's getting out of hand. Want to hangout with me? Cool...11:00- 12:00 pm is your scheduled time. Want to grab a bit to eat? Sweet! But I'll be reading homework assignments through lunch. Rik, want to come to FHE with us for once? Sorry Mom, I'll be in the library all night. Right now I feel super guilty for writing this terribly negative blog post instead of studying for Biology. Boy, I can't wait for Christmas break. Guilt-free, unscheduled down time is calling my name.
Do I even need to mention my love life? Word to the wise: don't send off a missionary, it's just rough. I think this may be the main cause of my current "funk"....I think I'm going to go on a boy strike. Forever.
On the reals, I don't mean to complain, but this is life! I gotta have the downs to have the ups, right? Hopefully my next post will be so awesomely uplifting that it puts glitter and sparkles to shame :). Until then, peace and love peeps!