Hey you, I appreciate you.

A few weeks ago, I started feeling really anxious. 

I don't want to get into too much detail, but in sum, I had this deep urge to be a better person, especially when it comes to my beliefs.

A lot of things in this world are changing and it seems as if worldly standards are veering further from my own personal beliefs. 

It kind of hit me like a ton of bricks that I can't just cruise through life or I'll drift in the direction of the world. 

Yes, I may be making right choices and living a good life, but in that moment, I realized that it wasn't enough.

So I had a freak out moment, like...

"BLAKE! the world is coming to an end! We can't just be chillin!"

and, "Omgeeee, how are we going to raise kids in this world!"

and, "AHH we have so many things we need to work on!"

I'm so happy a married a person who listened to my freak out and first said "Rik, you're a really really good person", but also said, "Okay, what do we need to work on?"

In that moment, the only thing that came to mind was, "we need to be on time to church!" haha cuz we're bad at that and it seemed like a good place to start.

But really, we've made some goals and we've been doing really good at them and it makes me so happy and it's totally increased the quality of our marriage.

Seriously, I'm way obsessed with B lately, like more than usual. 

And I just know it's because he get me, and listens to me, and helps me when I have weird freak outs. It's nice having a person to work on stuff and share goals with. 

Anyway. 

B....I love you and appreciate you. 

So much. 

Spring Break 2015

For Spring Break, B and I decided to just get away.

It had been a crazy busy year with his school and my work/dance schedule. 

Being on the Jazz, it's hard to take vacations. 

I mean, we're allowed time off, but the stress of missing practice (and having to learn all the dances from a video taken on an iphone and sent to you via text and having them perfectly learned by the time you show up to the next practice) is just SOO stressful!

Like, beats the purpose of even going on vacation. You feel?

Sadly, Spring Break landed on the last week of the Jazz season.

So I didn't get to dance at the last games, and get thank-you flowers, and do our end of year "solo" stuff.

Which was okay (at the time) because I thought I was going to do Jazz for one more season. (but totally turns out, i'm not! - more on that later). 

aaaaand they had some random blonde chick do my solo part at the game. 

So if you happened to be at that game and the announcer said "Rikiiiii Saaaanfooorrd!", 

and some tiny-sized, blonde chick came out and did a solo...I'm sure you put two and two together and realized that that DEFINITELY wasn't me :)

Lucky, Vegas and California were just. so. good. that I was sad about missing Jazz stuff for about point five seconds. 

B and I hit up Vegas for a few days (man I love free time with my man, we laughed and ate and shopped and napped and loved every second of it!) then we headed to California where we met our good friends Mitchy and Meggy. 

I feel like I post about California a lot (too much?). 

Too many beach pics.

Is that a thing?

They say too much of a good thing is a bad thing.

I say too much of the beach is just good for the soul.

Anyway. 

This vacation was a real good one.

Now, enjoy a crizapp load of pictures. 

^^B is a lover of frisbee and I'm soooo bad at it! I think one of his life goals is to make me a good frisbee partner. 

^^ one of our favorite things to do in California is house hunt. We found the sweetest house this time right next to the sweetest secret garden type thing and it was all just so sweet. 

 ^^Meggy's hair looks bomb. 

 ^^ we tried to do a shoulder sit for a picture and literally fell over cuz I guess we're really uncoordinated people when it comes to shoulder sits and stuff. 

Grateful for good friends and fun vacations.

Have a happy weekend, friends!